I’m so happy (and dorky) right now I can hardly breathe. I love Ryan :)
Being in a long distance relationship is hard, but the decision was very easy. I love Ryan so much that I knew it would be worth it. I know that if we weren’t together I would be way more upset and lonely and blah blah blah but it’s just hard when we can’t be together. I know that people “have it way worse,” and don’t have anyone at all, and some long distance relationships are longer and more distant.. but that doesn’t help how I’m feeling. I saw Ryan only a few days ago, but it feels like it’s been a lifetime. Every single day I wish that he didn’t live so far away, or that we weren’t both geographically tied to our colleges, even though I know that’s how it works. It’s all I can do but dream of the future, living in an old loft apartment in Seattle equipped with brick walls, a coffee table, and his and hers desks. Or that I’d get a million dollars randomly handed to me at this moment so we wouldn’t have to worry about school or where we’re living. Whenever I write posts like this I just kind of write what I’m thinking, I never re-read it, I just hope for the best. So, sorry. I just miss Ryan.